Who am I..?

I decided that i wouldn't be regionalistic...
That I'd consider myself as an Indian...
 So i sang Vande mataram with more pride than ente keralam
              But then i saw them singing jai karnataka...
              I saw even my teachers go out and about to support the growing regionalism in college
              I was heartbroken...
             So  nowadays i find myself staying more close to malayalees..(eeewww!!)

I decided that i'll not even have thoughts about casteism
But thanks to the "reservations" (of all kinds in all spheres)
For the college tour train ticket reservations, i had to go door to door and ask each of my classmates their caste!! (Yuck! i felt horrible!!!)

I decided that i wouldn't let my Dad buy me a seat for higher studies
That i'll get in, on my own merit, on my own efforts...
              But then i heard people talk coolly about buying seats as if it was normal
              Hey! Payment seats are legal!!!
              So after having a look at the entrance question papers,i wonder...
              Should i ask dad to buy me a seat too..?? (eeeeeeeeeeeeeww!!)


Yuck!! So this is how the big mean world takes out the sap from you,huh?
And this is how saints become dirty men...

I decided that i will be secular..

That i will not judge people by their religion...
I believed Ram and Isah to be One..
I even thought that i'd be fine even if i marry a guy from another religion..(!!ha ha!!)
So i went to temples and churches alike..even though i wasn't allowed the bread and wine..
But then i saw that they never came to temples...
And though i offered prasadam, they never ate it..
I felt sad...and my ego spoke...that now on i won't go to church as well..


One birthday morning, soon after returning from temple my pals asked me if i wanted to go to a cool African church...I thought and thought...
The Battle of Ego Vs Ideals took off in my head...
and since it was God's matter, i let the latter win over...

And so i went....
I sang jumped and danced to God...with people from so many parts of the world...
Different we were, but united by one thread of Faith..Just like He had intended this world to be

So when i sang "Because he lives...i can face tomorrow..." with my brothers and sisters..
I knew that i had made the right decision!!!

Lord, I pray  that in the battle of ego and ideals, may The Ideals ALWAYS win everywhere (even in me)...
So that your Kingdom (that includes me) may always stay pure...